well, april and I plan to call chris one of these days.
he left early today so we didn't get to ask him for his phone number.
we got bored and made up 23 nicknames for him.

michael angelo
the unfortunate snort
puffer fish
asshole jones
colgate
wolfgang
grizzly
tom teal
90210
r2d2
acdc
beefgroin
lambchop
lamb of chop
taste of gay
bullet for my chrisintine
agayu
chris cranker
chris cringle
christmas
napkin
the brave little toaster
bo jangles

bo jangles was my own personal addition
AND I THINK IT'S THE BEST ONE

bo jangles
where the fuck did i get that from?

dislikes:


likes:

Love gives you crabs.

Okay. I have plans.

I don't like playing this ex-relationship sort of thing, even if it didn't even get to go that far.
I hate that shit. I hate it. I've done it so many times too, and everytime it happens I take a longer time to recover.

I've been hiding in my house as much as I can, I've avoided all phone calls, 90% of my text messages and plenty of offers to go out with friends.
It's stupid. So, so incredibly stupid.

I let it get me so down this time that I had to get a refill on anti-depressants. I mean I'm sure there were other things that begged for that again like some family problems, friend problems and problems in school + the job thing. But still.
So stupid.

I've moped around like the sad sloppy person I am when something brings me way down
I've cried to my friends countless times; I can only imagine how hard they want to kick me for it
I bitch at my mom about it
(and my sister, actually)
I listen to annoying, whiny music
and worst of all I treat myself like absolutely shit.
I've said so many awful things about myself lately that it drives me even CRAZIER.

Well I threw out the pills and shit
I cleaned my ENTIRE room
I've screamed and cried and told myself what an unbelievably crappy person I am
I've talked to strangers about it
friends
whatever
I'm done.
DONE!!!

So now I'm going to fix my hair
get a manicure or something equally gay
and buy a new pair of shoes

Those are my plans.

I was going through Gala's website because .... well, I don't know why. Her purple hair attracted me.
But anyway she offered a bunch of relationship tips and I felt like a complete moron for being like "wow, I've done the complete opposite of all of this stuff!"
and so it was like
BAM , realization

:/

Anyway I think I'm going to start by taking myself to a movie and doing other lame shit like that.


and I uh....... I think I better by those.
(I'm such a sad, reformed gothfag)
GAWFFAG
ahhaha
seriously.



... seriously.



i mean, uh, what?



hahahahaha
i'm so fkivhbjkdlfgkjn
i mean i am so cute
fghfvfhbd

Okay so I know I've said sorry so many fucking times that it has stopped making any sense, even to me,
but I want to say it again one more time.
To everyone. You, you, you, all of you and ME.
I'm sorry I've been a stupid dramatic bitch over the situation but I think I've finally pulled the big axe out of my back.
So I'm doneskis.

Yes? Yes.
that's it.
I'm going cold turkey, I'm not going to talk about the situation at all from now on.

If something happens, it happens. I'll like
slit my wrists in private this time hahahha I don't know
fnbbfjkgbf!

Lately I've been too scatterbrained to do much of anything thought-provoking. My actions are rash and without reason.
I'll detail that idea in a bit.

But first I'd like to mention that I don't like how I get sick of my school friends really easily. I mean there's three people I'm thinking of that I don't think I could ever get tired of... but that's because I consider them my real friends, not just school friends, even if I only really see them at school. I am so sick of you and your judgmental, outspoken self. I can be outspoken and obnoxious, too, but I don't think you even have a filter between your brain and your mouth that sifts out the necessary and the unnecessary. I know I don't have enough balls to say any of this to your face, or to you at all, but I want you to know that I'm trying to cut you out of my life. When you start to complain to me, or my friends about it, I will say one last goodbye to you.

I don't remember what brought that on in my mind. As in, what gave me the idea to write about it.
Oh wait. nevermind.
Nevermind.
ahhaha.
/scatterbrain

I lat updated on the 8th.

On the 9th I went to the doctor after school because my mom thinks I'm depress-o again.
But after that I went to Katie's house to hang out with her and Kristen. We modded pictures on nexopia, went to nitzas to eat and I took 400-and-something pictures. I don't really feel like posting them but I'll get around to it eventually. I always update my little myspace folder of my favorite pictures that I've taken. Har har.

On the 10th I'm pretty sure I just laid around. I found out that Gigantour *is* coming here! I also talked to April on the phone for hours and hours. We talked about everything as usual, and also made my resume. I'm going to print it out and give it to Chapters and some other random places that I can find.

Friday the 11th I went to Chelsea's house after napping until 4:30. We played guitar hero and I managed a 44% for Through the Fire and the Flames on expert, which was weird for me because usually I do 5x worse then I normally do infront of other people. We watched some TV and I took pictures of her cat.
Then we got a ride into Morinville, to the youth thing. I don't remember what it was called. I agreed to go because I wanted to hang out with Chelsea... and I wanted to give Gabe his sweater back. I don't know how to describe how violent the twists in my stomach were when we pulled up. I had a miniature panic attack in my head and couldn't breathe for a second but I didn't say anything.
Zach gave me a hug. He got taller.
The service was the most awkward thing I've ever had to endure. Ever. I was shaking like a leaf the entire time, but I roughed it out because I was looking forward to hanging around with Chelsea afterwards. I had a panic attack 2/3s of the way through because the pastor said something like "stand up if you love god, and give yourself to god."
I don't know if it's immature of me that I didn't want to stand up... but honestly.. the preachings before that were enough to make me cry when I think about it now... so the mindset I was in by that point in the service just wasn't right.
Anyway I stopped breathing for a second and my eyes swelled up with tears! I was so freaked out. I said something like "CHELSEAWHATDOIDO?" and she told me to just stand up. So I did. I don't know. It was just a strange experience.
After the service when everyone was up and spread out around the place, Chelsea kept telling me to give Gabe his sweater back. I must have chickened out about 5 times before I actually did. And when I did I said it too quietly and had to repeat myself. The weirdest part was that I could only make like, a split second worth of eye contact. I always try to make eye contact with people when I talk to them. I guess I was so ashamed of myself that I couldn't........... ha ..ha.
I don't know. I did my best to stay collected but my neck was sore by the end of the night from hanging my head so much.
Chelsea and Zach had a fight because Zach is an ignorant fuckhead. I was so ready to slap him upside the head. He could treat me like that, but not Chelsea.
UGH!
After everything when I went home, he even had the nerve to message me on nexopia and sob to me about what a dick he "finally realized" he is. As if I hadn't tried to tell him that a million fucking times before, and as if he hadn't "realized" it before.
Holy fuck. Some people.
He went on by rudely telling Chelsea there was no god and blah blah blah. He tried to get me involved, it seemed, when he asked me my opinions on it. I didn't want to say anything because I happen to know that he has a really impressionable mind. I don't know how he did it but I ended up writing out a thoughtful explanation of my opinions and he pretty much agreed with me ):
Whatever. SOME PEOPLE.
I talked to Gabe on msn until 5am after that..

Umm I woke up early on the 12th and decided I had to go to whyte ave to get a sweater and to get my nose pierced. My mom took me but she didn't want to go to strange city because she was so overwhelmed by the parking situation on whyte :/ Waste of time.
I got her to drop me off at a bus stop and I went to west ed to get toner and a belt. I'm planning on going blond. I don't know when I'll get around to it. I said I'd do it today but I haven't felt motivated enough to get up.

Kristen came over when I got home. We were being really really silly.
we:

• made food from a bag
• watched rich bride poor bride. some dumb bitch said "we have butt heads" and kristen and I lol'd at her expense for a few hours.
• went to macks and bought a ridiculous amount of sugar/caffeine
• drew pictures for people on msn for like...3  hours.
• took silly pictures
• did somersaults
• kristen whipped off her pants
• we left my house at 12:30 at night to meet tony at macks
• tony bought a box of cookies for himself, a bottle of water for me and flavored water for kristen
• we went to tony's house and stayed there until 3am

at tony's house, we

• explored his room
• looked through his sex box, which contains an assortment of condoms and vibrating cock rings.
• drew on tony. in permanent marker. he has two sleeves of drawings on his arms, stuff all over his chest, stomach and hips AND his whole back.
  
• called random people and left messages on their phones
• laid around

I apparently also took off my pants and put on a pair of Tony's boxers.

We went downstairs after a while, where Kristen discovered a giant panda and I discovered Tony's camera. From there on we took silly pictures then ended up getting kicked out by Tony's little sister. So he walked us to my street and we said goodbye!
After that I'm pretty sure Kristen and I just watched boy meets world and fell asleep.
In the morning, kristen woke me up by putting the cat on me at like 10:30. she went home at about 11 and i laid down to nap at 11.
I got up at 4 and here I am.

kgjnhgjkdoflknmdlf

Its no problem, I'll just keep quiet if its easier for you

I slept maybe an hour last night. I laid around for a countless amount of time before that just laying on my floor again. i don't know, i guess i feel ... more organized on the floor, if that makes any sense.
i poured out my entire heart into a fricken nexopia message at 4:00am when i realized that it was the reason i couldn't sleep, and the reason that i was sore all over and i slept fine after that, on my bed and everything.
i didn't really get the reply/reaction i wanted, but atleast a few things are .. cleared up now, i guess.
my hands have been freezing cold all day long
i feel clammy, hazy, sometimes dizzy and I doze in and out of reality frequently.

anyway i talked to coral today. she gave me a nice hug and tried to make me feel better. i don't remember what i told her but i think i might regret whatever i said. i guess i'll find out tomorrow or something. i remember her clearly saying that she wanted to help me find a non-church goer and that didn't upset me until a few hours after. that's not the way i want it to be at all.

i really want to get away from the subject though, as in my whole religion thing. i had a good talk to april about it tonight which lasted a few hours, actually. if there's anyone i'm going to listen to about it, it's april. she means the entire world to me, you know.
i guess i'm just kind of empty/lonely without her here.

i had a long nap again today. i really need a job because i'm getting tired of sleeping my life away. i'm lapsing in to a really shitty life schedule again. with exams coming up and all, i'm a little bit worried that i'm going to get my ass kicked even harder. my math exam is on friday i'm pretty sure, and even though it's prep, i'm so worried.
at the same time, though, i'm not worried at all. i'm somewhere in between caring if i get a bad mark, and not giving a second thought to it.

my torrent for the broken movie finished by the time i got home from school, so i watched it before i napped.

i have to say, as grotesque and awful as it is (props to the director for managing to pull of something that seemed so realistic without actually torchuring/slaughtering/murdering a person) that it was probably one of the most intriguing things i've ever seen. just the way the entire movie went together cohesively and still made sense, as well as the way it went along with the music itself.
"I've never been a fan of watching videos or movies or anything like that in favor of understanding a song through someone else's point of view
but I think the fact that Trent will only do what he wants, no a director or someone who has no relation, really helps the fact that the visuals he releases with his music are suitable and clearly depict the ideas they are formed from."
-me.

i have an in class essay to write tomorrow. about romeo and juliet. it's midnight and i'm far too tired to start anything now. i was going to write a couple paragraphs for it, and just slip it from my notebook when the teacher wasn't looking or something like that.

today was a good day for loud music. i think that was the only thing that kept me focussed in school, else i would have went into another dimension of some sort.

i talked to brandy about some of my insecurities today. i do value her opinions and her suggestions, so it was good for me to talk to her. (:

holy shit i even talked to my mom today
i was getting sick of her following me around, asking what my issue was, so i finally told her.
naturally she didn't really have anything worth hearing to say.
but i convinced her to take me to get my piercings. that's always good. i could use something right about now to make me feel better, and i've been wanting to get these piercings for years now, so it'll be good.

i'm ordering some clothes off of the internet this week too
april's helping me with a resume
i convinced a stranger to buy me a BME subscription (really really stoked about that) unless he doesn't follow through.
going with chelsea to youth on friday........ i'll be fine.
i love jack johnson thanks to kristen, who i also love very much
i love katie

i fought with a door today. i was all flustered after some guy pushed it open effortlessly. fuck i hate big doors.
and katie told me that my mom is a milf.


bleh.

It is funny how fast things can change for me. It's like one day I own the nicest boat on the lake, it's a beautiful day, the skies are blue and I feel completely content. But the next day, the boat is sinking, the water is swallowing me whole and a tornado rips through wherever my home resides and destroys everything I once knew.
Good one.
I don't know. I'm really loopy right now. At 9pm I swallowed 7 advils, because I was convinced it would make my stomach stop hurting.

Anyway this morning I woke up a happy person even though I slept less then an hour total. I wasn't late for school for once in my life and I had a good conversation with my math teacher. I was singing Suicidal Tendencies to him (:
Foods class was silly as usual, Tony is one of my favorite new friends without a doubt. He carried me around at break for a while, too.
Basically it was just like a normal day. I wasn't too phased even though it was monday, first day back from break. I guess that's good.
I lost a lot of my patience during English, though, just because I don't like that class, and because I have a lot of stupid, shitty, Romeo and Juliet related homework to do over the next few days.

I got home and decided to nap to try and regain a few more hours of sleep. It was a good sleep, I listened to Jack Johnson the whole time and woke up happy, which is a rarity for me. Usually when I wake up from a nap I feel disorientated and sore.

I don't really feel like detailing what happened when I got on to the computer
but uh I will say that everything I said in my last entry was taken back by the deliverer.
I'm not good enough, that's why.

According to Matt, it's because I'm not Christian.
I hadn't thought of that,
and it doesn't make any sense to me what so ever,
but I guess I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not that either.

In fact, I should just write a massive list of things I'm sorry for, and express mail them to jesus.
Here's a start:

• I'm sorry I'm a bad person.
• I am sorry I do bad things.
• I am sorry that I don't want a god figure in my life.
• I am sorry I do not have faith.
• I am sorry that I don't believe in things I can't see.
• I'm sorry I don't believe in Santa Clause, or the Tooth Fairy. They must be real, too.
• I'm sorry that the last however many things I said were kind of awful.
  
• I'm sorry for being obnoxious.
• I'm sorry for being outspoken.
• I'm sorry I don't plan to change my mind.

and a million more.

I really don't know how to explain my religiousless self. It makes me feel guilty, for reasons that I don't understand.
I'm not ignorant.
I'm not, I'm not, I'm not.
I gave it a try. I thought it out.
It just doesn't click in my head, at all.
Like trigonometry.

Another thing I don't understand is why some people can't respect my beliefs.
I respect yours, no doubt. I wouldn't say anything offensive about Religion who took it seriously, let alone say anything awful outside of my own home.
I respect you.
Can't you respect me?
April is religious,
and I know that she'll love me forever no matter what,
and the same courtesy is extended from me to her.
I don't get it.

I kind of feel like the world is against me on this one, actually.
But no matter how much I try, I just cannot seeing 'god' as being a priority in my life. I have a good head on my shoulders, a decent work ethic for someone my age, my own morals and all that jazz. I don't see why I need someone else to make my decisions for me, if that makes any sense.
Maybe I'm not seeing the point.

Fuck, I don't know!
I'll just settle for the idea that I'm not good enough.
I am an unfortunate human being.
Boo hoo.
I'll continue to date boys that don't respect me for any reason, fuck yeah!

I forgot to finish my last entry. I was going to Friday night but then my world did a 180. I don't know what to write without sounding like a creeper! I am completely thrilled/overjoyed and pleased with the way things are now looking up for me now, surprisingly.
Maybe I'll make a friends only entry after this so friends can read and I can keep.

In continuation of my other blog....


December 27
I lied about playing Halo 3 until 6 am!! I actually talked to my friend Raymundo-Cornellius on the phone until 5. We were both scared and paranoid of our basements, so we spent most of the time exchanging creepy stories, or talking about music to make us feel better. I'd just like to mention that I lub lub lub this kid, and I wish he would make time for me even in his busy schedule of getting in trouble - school - girlfriend - friends. For some reason I feel like I could tell him anything. That's really comforting to me.

December 28
I went to Tristan's house on this day for a sleepover. I don't think I got very many interesting pictures, but I still love her. We got really silly after like 2am with all of the giggling, grand theft auto-ing and whatnot. She told me a lot about her life, and I hope everyone knows that I LOVE it when people talk about their life for hours upon hours, mostly because I don't really like talking about mine like that. I don't know if you know, but Tristan and I are like opposite people when we compare what we do day-to-day, but for some reason, I don't think we'll ever stop being friends. I absolutely love her, she's one of my favorite girls in St.Albert.
April called me while I was at Tristan's to tell me about a bunch of myspace drama. EVERYTHING FUCKING HAPPENS WHEN I'M NOT HOME! Honestly, I rarely leave my house, but when I do everyone just dies.
Hhahah.
But yeah. I love Tristan. We didn't get to bed until like, 6am, and we didn't wake up until 3.
picture: tristan

December 29
I got home from Tristan's place at 4:30 or something like that. I'm pretty sure I fell asleep on my bed and didn't wake up for a few hours. Due to lack of blog entries on nexopia, I'm guessing I was probably playing xBox or something, instead of internetting.

December 30
Didn't do much all day long, but I DID go to Kristen's work party that night. It was cute, we had a big meal and played Cranium afterwards. The people she works with are really sweet and funny, so it was a good time. I got so many really good pictures, but to be completely honest with you, I'm too lazy tor resize anymore. Maybe I'll just put links to the ones I have on my myspace or something haha. I ended up sleeping at Kristen's house. I love her. I thought I knew this guy from her work on nexopia, so I had to check to see if it was him, but luckily it wasn't. But anyway we pretty much laid in her bed and talked for hours and hours. Kristen was saying SILLY so many times, because she was so sleepy. It was cute, but it really rubbed off on me because over the past few days I've said it millions of times. But anyway we listened to her sleepy happy music all night, and slept the wrong way on her bed. But my favorite part was that we bonded (:
pictures: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10

December 31
I was supposed to go to the fireworks with Kristen, Katie, Leanne and Sorchy but I don't know what happened hahah. I just kind of ended up hanging out with Chelsea!!! I really adore her, she's so cute and funny and her mom is like, in love with me. (:
But anyway, I hung out at her house a bit, then we went to the fireworks, where I took a bunch of shitty pictures of them
and afterwards walked to 7-11 to get coffee and whatnot. I saw Lauren and Lauren Krause and Amanda, and apparently Lauren K moved to Texas!! How come no one tells me these things?!?!?
Whne we got home, I took a bunch of really cute/funny pictures of Chelsea. She decided to dress up really scene and be silly. I adore her hahaha.
But yes, I shall link some pictures that I uploaded to my myspace folder, because she is so cute, and the pictures are worth seeing. Good portraits, yay!!
I got home from her house at 11 and spent the rest of 2007 on the computer/talking on the phone with April. I'm pretty sure I missed the countdown or whatever, because I mass messaged everyone on my friendslist at exactly midnight wishing a happy new year hahahaha.
pictures: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22

January 1
I honestly did absolutely nothing worth mentioning, What a sad, sad way to start the New Year.

January 2
I met Ray, some guy I'd been talking to on nexopia for a few days, at west ed at around 2. It was kind of awkward, just because I felt inclined to talk and talk and talk, which probably made me seem like an idiot. We decided to see the movie I AM LEGEND but we had 30 minutes to kill before the movie started, so we went and sat in the arcade part of the movie...area in west ed. He's a nice kid, but we don't really have anything in common whatsoever hahaha.
Ummmmmmmmm then I guess we went into the theater and watched the previews, WHICH FEATURED ONE OF THE POUGHKEEPSIE TAPES THAT SCARED THE LIVING SNOT OUT OF ME.
The movie was pretty good, but after he had to kill Sam, I felt like throwing up. It got to the point where I did actually have to throw up, sooooo I went to the bathroom and did so. Yummy. I must really be a really appealing date, yes?
But yeahhhhhhhhhhh that movie was.... frustrating. I don't know if I'd recommend it. Will Smith is pretty silly.
After that we walked around for a while, waiting for my bus to come. Apparently I looked at the wrong schedule and missed my bus? But I met up with Courtney and Jen so I had company to wait with me while I waited for my momma to come pick me up.
I love Courtney and Jen.
We went to the pet store to look at the animals, particularly the kitties. So cute.

After that I went to Leanne's house to meet up with her, Sorchy and Katie for a sleepover. Kristen didn't get there until 9 so we went to macs to killllll tiiiime. Sorchy and I bought eggnog, oreos and some strawberry cheesecake thing HHAHAHAH.
We got back and Kristen arrived, so we watched a mooovie. I forget what it was called... but it had Ben Stiller in it, and he married this girl who turned out to be a crazy bitch or something. Hahhaha.
Katie left after the movie, and we all went downstairs.
Sorchy and Leanne went to bed pretty early, so Kristen and I stayed up watching silly things on TV like PRANK PATROL!
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30

January 3
We got up pretty early and decided to go to subway after eating cereal.
Leanne and Sorchy left, so Kristen and I went back to my house. She wanted to go to Sally's or Whyte Ave, so we planned to do so. Unfortunately it was like 4 when we did so, so we didn't end up going. We were all ready to go but then it popped in my head that we would not have time to go to Sally's, or whyte ave, and make it back to West Ed to catch the last bus home. So my mom and I just dropped Kristen off at home.
I don't think I did anything else interesting hahaha.
I chilled on the internets for a while, but then decided to take a little nap while waiting for my music to download at 8. Unfortunately, I didn't get up until 1. Hhahaha.

January 4
I went shoppin with my mam and my sister. I bought 2 pairs of pants, the arch enemy dvd, the amon amarth dvd, red dragon by thomas harris, twilight by stephenie meyer and cell by steven king, as well as my shampoo from chatters.
Josh turned 18 on this day (:

Aaaaaaand I basically did nothing, until I got a call at 10 last night from Matt.
So I've been talking to gabe on nex for a long time
just, randomly I guess
and his friend matt started talking to me the other night and he was all "OH YOU SHOULD COME HANG OUT" but i didn't feel like going to the youth thing
but afterwards, gabe, justin, coral, matt and gabe's older brother called me and asked me where i lived
but they couldnt find my house so i met them like
on the street hahhaha and basically just jumped in their car
and we went to coral's house
so there was like 6 of us just hanging out until like 1
then justin was like "I HAVE TO GO HOOOME" and whatnot because his mom told him to be home by one, and matt and/or gabe's brother aaron was/were supposed to drive him home
but then they decided to walk all the way to morinville
for no reason
except to get matt's car, even though aaron's was there hahahhaa
so justin got stuck hanging out with us until his brother could pick him up yadda yadda
so from like 1:30am - 6am it was just me gabe and coral
we watched the simpsons movie hahah and i was all like, cuddling gabe i guess, because i tend to do that
coral fell asleep but she was worried about aaron and matt so she called them every 20 minutes

and i dont know haha the three of us were just kind of napping on coral's bed, but she kicked me and gabe out so we brought a mattress from i don't remember where and slept on her floor hahahah
i ended up cuddling with him until matt and aaron got back which was like 6:30am
then i dont remember what happened but i ended up on the bed with coral and gabe again
but then coral decided to sleep on the mattress we brought in
so gabe and i just slept in corals bed for like 3 hours haha

January 5
 i woke up at 11 but he was still sleeping so i chilled with coral and her dad and watched so you think you can dance
thennnn coral decided to wake matt up because he fell asleep infront of the computer or something hahahah
aaronhad left to take the car back
and i dont know i went and laid down with gabe again
and we ended up talking/cuddling for another 2-3 hours
until I decided to go home.

(:
That's all I have to say.
(: (: (: (: (: (:
Hence why everything is looking up for me.

....
Yeah!

Soo I went home and laid around remeniscing to myself about the whole night/day. April called and I talked to her a bit. I told Chelsea what went on.
blahblah.
My parents invited their friends over, and they expected me to be excited to see their baby again, when really I just wanted to throw up.
So I went downstairs and played antisocial for 4 hours and watched myyyyyy precious music dvds (: arch enemy, amon amarth, children of bodom then nine inch nails.
lub lub.

THAT IS ALL!

I really wish I could stick to LJ for a long period of time. I enjoy looking back on my days, remembering how I felt and whatnot. I'm kind of a miserable person, I have noticed. Not just now, or a while ago, but most of the time. I have violent thoughts/ideas and I speak with extreme pessimism.

Anywho, I think the most exciting thing I have to share is the pictures I've taken over the last few days. I last replied on the 26th of december, and that was a week ago. I have gotten some impressive pictures, I'd like to think.
I'll just show you in chronological order, because thats how my picture folder is arranged.

December 27
I went to West Edmonton mall on this day to meet up with Jen and Courtney, my two cute mall rat friends. First day out with my camera. I am so impressed with myself as far as pictures went: this camera takes absolutely beautiful pictures with a simple setting change, and point-and-shoot sort of idea.
Anyway, Courtney and Jen and I went to the Sea Caverns

( to see the animals )

then we
I like being with them: Jen and Courtney are good friends to me. They don't judge me, like the people I'm used to, they simply accept me for who I am.

I had to get on my bus after that, but

It was a good time. After that, I got my mom to drive me to Graham's house. We played Guitar hero, I played with his cat Snicklefritz and we watched Freddy Got Fingered. I'm pretty sure that movie scarred me.

But yeah.. it was alright. I cuddled Graham but he didn't really cuddle me back.
I'm kind of used to it.

....

Anyway, I didn't get home until midnight. I probably spent the night playing HALO 3 until 6am or something like that. That is usually how it goes.

It's 4:30 am. I have to get up at 11:30 to go jean shopping with my mam. So I guess I should go to bed now before I drop dead.

TO BE CONTINUED.